Chapter 01

 18.31

It’s true what they say. Motherhood ain’t easy. I know that I have a great support system (re: my husband), but I feel alone. I feel like I’m doing this alone. I know it’s not comparable but I feel lonely everytime he goes out, spending time be it alone or with his friends. I feel that way because I don’t have the luxury to be out. I can’t go out because who will nurse my daughter? Who will calm her down when she cries? Don’t get me wrong, my daughter is the biggest blessing for me, but I miss my life before. I miss having a skinny body, because my jeans don’t fit anymore. I miss going to coffee shops without worrying my baby is waiting for me at home. I miss doing my reports at some restaurants or coffee shops with my airpods in. 

Will I ever get rid of this “lonely” feeling? Will I ever recover from this? When will I be able to go out by myself?

 15.34

Nothing worth having comes easy. Strong whirlwind indeed.

Touché.

 17.48

January blooms, drifts me away.

When I know it's going nowhere, but I keep walking towards the beam.

 22.30

When your head and your heart have different thoughts, you just don't know which one you should follow.

 19.18

Either your head or your heart, you set the other on fire.

 04.24

“But I’ve got high hopes,

it takes me back to when we started.

High hopes. When you let it go,

go out and start again. High hopes.

When it all comes to an end. But 

the world keeps spinning around.”

 21.34

It's only been a couple of months but it feels like years.

This doesn't feel like home.